Backtracking Updates from afar: Green Suede Shoes

Monday, June 19th, 2006
1:03 pm
Green Suede Shoes
Green Suede shoes and forget me not blues.....sunshine cookies and paint on my jeans these are things you don't understand but they make perfect sense to me.

Give me a free weekend and Ill show you sunshine times with a hint of day glo in the dark. Unplanned weekends are the best especially when its 90 degrees and your bank account is on overload.
Painting in the backyard in the sun....blues, reds, greens, thinking about the universe my passion flower vine weaving over my head and the butterfly sitting on the stem drinking in the flowers sweet insides. Strawberries from my plant in the backyard make the perfect breakfast....the day starts....
Wedding crashing in Tiburon overlooking the city in the sunshine with a $600 gown on toasting to the new bride and groom and laughing hysterically taking pictures of your tits in the sun while no-one is looking and picture messaging your hung over friends with sunshine snapshots of the bay. Realizing that people find love and cultivate it still in these times of fast interactions and faster disappearing acts. Highway riding in a gown bare legs getting a tan as we speed by and the bus driver waves down at us two space people in our helmets.
Fashion show paparazzi cover shots into the night surrounded by beautiful girls and talented boys who play records until they kick us out. They smile I nod...I see the green watch as I sell seam after seam into the great beyond. Each piece is a corner of my life gone. Inspired by the fear, tears, hunger, hurt, laughter and light I see each day. I watch as they turn into another item of clothing in someone's wardrobe...they will never know. Out of business cards and handshakes I find you talking to strange girls and sending interesting eye gestures to me from across the room.
Eating beef jerky,pringles,and snickers in the car listening to underground tunes laughing and watching the pavement disappear behind us. Friends crashed out on your bed when you arrive home one shoe on one shoe off...alcohol and after-party catching up? They don't answer as the sleep has taken hold I smile... tuck them in and sit on the end of my bed smoking my end of the day joint and thinking of someone far away. Wishing I could make you materialize next to me to smoke right now....but I fall asleep instead.... as my powers of teleportation are still not up to par.
Waking up to a hug and a happy face telling me that friendship is golden....and my bed is comfortable. I know I cant do it by myself and I love you sitting next to me as a friend...being so lost before makes this a moment to remember. Sharing some music...letting the water wash away the remnants of last nights work and play. Patio breakfasts in the sunshine and mimosas till we cant walk anymore...giggling...climbing jungle-gyms like when I was five letting the cool wind ruffle through my hair watching the smoke curl up into the blue sky above us.
Records they spin around the disco ball follows casting shiny dots all around us...there is nothing like the hugs you give and the smiles you flash from behind the booth at me...its just us but we are entertained...champagne and smiling bartenders blow kisses...how could I ever forget about you...my friends...exploring the basement searching for the light-switch thats right there. Smiling cab ride to porch stoop playing football in the street and swigging vodka with ice...waiting for motobikes in the night.
Motobikes take me to a place where the music plays till the sun comes up again.Shining smiles warm hugs faces that are familiar mingle in with the ones I haven't seen in ages..... melting. I find my fan and a speaker and lose it all there where you can't find me for hours. That look on my face is bliss and I can find it anytime...as long as I have you guys there with me. Sometimes you just have to wait and see who comes to find you when your out there...exploring the edges. Its all worth it....and I wouldn't trade making sheet tents in the morning giggling until I pass out on your bed for anything.Sunday finds me at the beach walking in the sand watching the kite surfers rip the waves and sailboats shimmer in the reflecting light off the water.Waving grass in the wind and puppies chasing sticks into the water....watching the day slip by... Thank you for the inspiration you my friends what would I do without you? You and your smiles and energy are stitched up into each piece of clothing and all the brush strokes from now till the end ... just in case you didn't know.
So.... I look back down at my..... Green Suede shoes forget me not blues...sunshine cookies and paint on my jeans these are things you don't understand but they make perfect sense to me.